BRB

Dear all, I will be back blogging Maybe somewhere else. But I need to figure first what I want, where I want, why I want! When I figure, I’ll stick to it much better. I promise! Hee thank YOU to the faithful readers.

Sorry for the let down! <3

Ruth, One of My Role Models

I wana be like Ruth.

She did not indulge in self-pity. She must have mourned for her husband who passed away. But she picked herself up . And picked herself up soon she did. Even though a young widow in a foreign land, she trusted in God and provided for her mother-in-law by  humbly going to the fields to pick up leftover grain.

I wana be like her. *takes a deeeep breathe*

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Worries, Depedence on God & Waiting Faithfully

Michele shared with me that it is often “easier to be a great leader than a great father”.
She gave examples of Eli, Samuel and David’s life.

“Eli’s sons were wicked men; they had no regard for the LORD.” (1 Samuel 2:1)

“But his (Samuel’s) sons did not walk in his ways. They turned aside after dishonest gain and accepted bribes and perverted justice.” (1 Samuel 8:3)

And not forgetting the conspiracy of Absalom against his father David.

Though its pretty far fetched, but…

Honestly, there has been a lingering fear in me since don’t know when. Even though I love children, I sometimes find myself saying/thinking things like “I don’t want children.” It’s the worry that I guess every Christian parent faces…that their children would turn out horrible in character and not walk with God. This thought that my children may become like that really scares me.

Ooo and what if my husband turns out to be some horrible man. Or he no longer loves me and only cares about the kids.

I concluded that girls need to choose our husbands wisely because you’ll be stuck with that man for a long time.

But all these fears, I surrender to you Lord.

He says

“Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.”
(Psalm 127:1)

I learned more about this Psalm from my pastor some time ago. He said that a husband/father has a role to build the house… to bring home the bacon and to protect the family by watching over it. (Hee something like that!) But in this Psalm it says “Unless the LORD builds”, “Unless the Lord watches over”. Therefore God will oversee and do that too.

“Houses and wealth are inherited from parents,
but a prudent wife is from the LORD.”
(Proverbs 19:14)

God will provide someone good (if that’s his will for me to get married!) and He will be the one who builds and watches over my future family

Hmm but there are still things I don’t understand. Didn’t Samuel and David trust God for their families?  If you have any input, please share!

But I still get encouraged by many loving and Christ-centred families

Share with you all a song It’s titled Faithfully by Eric and Leslie Ludy. You can read their encouraging stories too… about their love and family http://www.setapartlife.com/Our_Story.html

But I will keep believing that God still has a plan
And though I can’t see you now,
I know that He can
And someday I will give you all of me
Until I find you, I’ll be waiting faithfully

Let the Little Children come

I loved my first day at work Perhaps I haven’t felt the full impact of exhaustion and maybe frustration yet because I only worked from 830 to 12 today. Hee but I really love looking at kids and especially when I got to interact with them. I can’t help but smile. I’m looking after the 18months. They cry a lot especially this little-so-so-adorable boy He kept asking for his jie jie. It was pretty hard to handle him because he was disrupting the class when the teacher was trying to teach a rhyme. But during lunch (after about 3 hours of non-stop crying and gloom) while I was assisting him as he ate, I saw him smile at me for the first time and then he smiled and smiled again. It was sooo heart warming I can’t quite describe.

And for the first time, I changed clothes and diapers for kids and wiped their mucus off! Lol.

I guess today’s work allowed me to see the kids trust and obedience. When you tell them something’s dangerous, they’ll take note because they believe you have their best interest in mind. When you ask them to pack up the toys, they’ll do so too. I guess that’s what Jesus meant by “…for the Kingdom of God belongs to such as these” (Luke 18:16)

I was supposed to wake up at 620a.m. today but I was just soo tired. I woke up at 645 instead. I got reading in 15min!!

I will survive!

Blessed Easter!

I enjoyed today a lot. Spent it with Mel, Eve, Josco and Mel’s (Magdalene and Char)  and Eve’s (Crystal) friends )) We exchanged Easter eggs Eve and I also spent time together at Buddies – brownies, notebooks and our bible.<3! Mel, Eve and I are going to use the same material for Qt, keeping each other accountable and all yay.

I’m starting work tomorrow at YMCA childcare. So excited. Gona be a helper there, looking aitfter 2y.o. kids. I can’t wait (except for waking up at 6.20am for 5 days in a week). Yay. I hope I can cope cos it’s said to be tough.

Blessed Easter!! I need to sleep early )

Results of a Shopaholic Who Has Been Idling for 2 Months

My statement of accounts came today and I spent

$1,411.45
in a month o.o

Minus my Genting trip, it’s

$1,061.45
:/ Hmm

Minus my visit to the dentist, it’s

$870.45

And I went to Genting and Chiang Mai for a total of 9 days. All my expenses were covered by my parents. So I spent $870.45 in 23 days. Average of $38 a day.
This is not good news.

Chance Rendezvous VS Eyes of Faith

Ruth Chapter 1

8 Then Naomi said to her two daughters-in-law, “Go back, each of you, to your mother’s home. May the LORD show kindness to you, as you have shown to your dead and to me. 9 May the LORD grant that each of you will find rest in the home of another husband.”
Then she kissed them and they wept aloud 10 and said to her, “We will go back with you to your people.”

11 But Naomi said, “Return home, my daughters. Why would you come with me? Am I going to have any more sons, who could become your husbands? 12 Return home, my daughters; I am too old to have another husband. Even if I thought there was still hope for me—even if I had a husband tonight and then gave birth to sons- 13 would you wait until they grew up? Would you remain unmarried for them? No, my daughters. It is more bitter for me than for you, because the LORD’s hand has gone out against me!”

14 At this they wept again. Then Orpah kissed her mother-in-law good-by, but Ruth clung to her.

In Lady in Waiting, the book focuses mainly on the story of Ruth. With regards to what I read today, the book compares Orpah to Ruth. It enlightened me a lot so I shall share it here. It’s to ladies who can relate to or are struggling with this!

Extracting from Lady in Waiting:

Where the Boys Are

Naomi’s suggestion appeared very rational. Naomi knew that they (Ruth and Orpah being Moabites) had a better chance of finding husbands in Moab than in Israel. “… Go back, each of you, to your mother’s home… May the Lord grant that each of you will find rest in the home in another husband” (Ruth 1:8-9).

Orpah  followed the Naomi’s advice and chose a logical sight for the future direction.

Many singe women spend their free time searching for the same kind of location chosen by Orpah. They attend schools because they can “see” the prospects. They join churches based on apparent ratios of men to women.

Chance Rendezvous

A woman who takes the route of Orpah (sensual, logical sight) often invents ways for a “chance rendezvous” with the man of her dreams. You can see her loitering in the very area the Mr. Right regularly frequents, hoping that he might finally notice her and romance will begin.

Such a young woman might sing in the choir, not because she wants to make a joyful noise unto the Lord, but because she wants the weekly chance to sit near the prospect (single man) that her “sensual sight” has focuses upon. Such impure motives for such a noble cause! Proverbs 19:14 says, ‘House and wealth are an inheritance from fathers, but a prudent wife is from the Lord’

If the Lord wants to give you a man, He does need your clever “chance rendezvous.” This is not advocating that you avoid men completely and expect the Lord to “UPS”  His choice to your front door. You need to participate in activities that involve men and women, but be sensitive to your motives whenever you find yourself in the presence of ‘available men.’ Proverbs 16:2 says, ‘All a man’s ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord.’

Orpah’s style (logical sight) tends to become the norm, but Ruth offers an alternative to this vain search for Mr. Right. She demonstrates what it means to be a Lady of Faith.

Eyes of Faith

Orpah’s example of going after the available men could have influenced Ruth to return to Moab, the home of her parents and the gods of her youth. Ruth, however, remained with Naomi and her God. Ruth certainly must have considered the probability of remaining single if she went with Naomi. Even though it promised no prospects of a husband, she chose to follow Naomi and her God back to Bethlehem. Ruth chose to trust God with her future. She looked not with her sensual sight, but through the ‘eyes of faith.’ Even though Ruth was young in her faith in the God of Israel, she chose to trust God with her heart for the future her eyes could yet to see.

You may wonder, ‘How can I be a Lady of Faith when I feel so insecure deep in my heart that God will deliver the goods. What if I have faith in God and end up being 98 and unmarried?’ Of course, you would never outright admit that you’re not sure you can trust God. That would appear too ungodly! But there’s a sneaking fear in the back of your mind: ‘If I really give up my search and have ‘eyes of faith,’ God might not give me what I desire, like a husband, a home, and children.’ God knows when your heart aches for these precious things. But He also knows that these earthly things will not make you secure.

To be sure, your gnawing fears are very common. The enemy knows how common these fears are and he feeds them by adding a few lies… Satan wants you to believe the lie that cripples faith: God cannot be trusted.

The  Lady of Faith will have times when her secure eyes of faith begin to blink into an anxious twitch of insecure, sensual sight. She can admit her insecurity to her heavenly fiance and He can calm the twitching eyes. Spending some quality time in the Word is the best ‘eye wash’ for ‘eyes of faith.’

Divine Encounter

In contrast to the manipulated ‘chance rendezvous’ of the single woman Orpah, Ruth had a divine encounter that affected not only her marital status, but also biblical history. The first morning in Bethlehem, Ruth happened to stop in a field belonging to Boaz. Interesting enough, the same day, Boza ‘just happened to visit the very same field where Ruth was gathering the leftover grain. Their meeting was not an accident nor the product of female maneuvering. Instead it was the work of a sovereign God.

God providentially directed Ruth to the field of Boaz. You can find the divine encounter in the 2nd chapter of Ruth, verse 3: ‘…and she happened to come into the portion of the field belonging to Boaz…’ The verb happened in Hebrew means ‘chanced upon’. This leaves no room for manipulation. Ruth did not ‘have plans’ when she chanced upon his field. Ruth’s ‘eyes of faith’ led her to the exact spot where she would meet her Mr. Right, Boaz whose name means ‘pillar of strength’ (Contrast the meaning of his name to that of her first husband, Mahlon, which means ‘weak and sickly’! God rewarded Ruth’s faith with a husband who was a ‘pillar of strength’)

If Jesus wants you married, He will orchestrate the encounter. You have nothing to fear except getting in His way and trying to ‘write the script’ rather than following His. Jesus does has your best interest at heart. He desires to bless you by giving you the best. Sometimes what you perceive as the best is nothing more than a generic version. Consider His wisdom and love in comparison to your own wisdom and self-love. In whom are you going to trust – all Wisdom and Everlasting Love or little ol’ finite you? Ever since the Garden of Eden, women have often felt they could and should know as much as God.

Ruth Chapter 2

² And Ruth the Moabitess said to Naomi, “Let me go to the fields and pick up the leftover grain behind anyone in whose eyes I find favor.”
Naomi said to her, “Go ahead, my daughter.” ³ So she went out and began to glean in the fields behind the harvesters. As it turned out, she found herself working in a field belonging to Boaz, who was from the clan of Elimelech.

⁴ Just then Boaz arrived from Bethlehem and greeted the harvesters, “The LORD be with you!”

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In addition, God is so good! Yesterday I wrote down my questions and my feelings to God. Today He used a verse and a phrase in the book to reinforce and to show me clearer

• ‘All a man’s ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord.’ (Proverbs 16:2)
• Satan wants you to believe the lie that cripples faith: God cannot be trusted.

P.S. I’m still struggling between Accountancy and Nursing. I sent an email to NUS to ask for a chance to go for Nursing interview. Plese pray for me! I’ve been hearing so many opinions, I’m confused

Spell by Marie Digby

I love it (:

Spotlight shining brightly, on my face
I can’t see a thing and yet I feel you walking my way
Empty stage, with nothing but this girl
Singing this simple melody and
Wearing her heart on her sleave

And right now
I have you, for a moment I can tell I’ve got you
Cuz your lips don’t move
Something is happening
Cuz your eyes tell me the truth
I’ve put a spell over you

Beauty emanates from every word that you say
You’ve captured the deepest thoughts
In the purest, and simplest of ways
But you see, I’m not that graceful, Like you
Nor am I as eloquent
But just a simple melody
Can change the way that you see me

And right now, I have you
For a moment I can tell I’ve got you
Cuz your lips don’t move
And something is happening
Cuz your eyes tell me the truth
I’ve put a spell over you

And all my life I’ve stumbled
But up here I am just perfect
Perfect as I’ll, ever be

I have you, for a moment
I can tell I’ve got you
Cuz your lips don’t move
And something is happening
Cuz your eyes tell me the truth
I’ve put a spell over you

Boys Over Flowers FINALE

Hana Yori Dango FINALE Trailer:

Yay I realised that there’s still a finale for Hana Yori Dango (Boys Over Flowers) and I just finished watching it. Sooo nice

I like what Makino said to Domyoji when they were stranded on an island

The painful and sad things
is split in half between us
The fun and happy things
We enjoy them twice as much

It sounds weird in English hahaha  but nevertheless  I guess that is why two are better one  and a cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Catch it after watching season 1 & 2 at http://www.mysoju.com/hana-yori-dango-final/